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Tim Burton (via seattledarling)
Story of my life.
That is the very best we can hope for, isn’t it? To evolve beyond the experience of the previous generation somehow..to change the paradigm…to make different choices for our lives, to hopefully influence the next generation in a positive way. XO
Absolutely! I feel as though I am incredibly lucky to have been able to move beyond these experiences. Truly, it has allowed me to mourn the losses, and comfort that part of myself that didn’t really understand what was going on at the time.
One of the biggest realisations for me was that there was nothing I could do to change another’s actions towards me. I couldn’t change their behaviour, get them to say or do the things I wanted them to do (or not do). And so I had to look at what I could control.
I then became more mindful of which behaviours stemmed from my familial experiences, and tried to ease away from behaviours that were destructive, or that got me no where. I decided that I needed to think for myself. That instead of ending up being something, based on my experiences, I could dictate what I wanted to become. I’m very proud of where I am today.
so many of our stories are like this - thanks for sharing
I write about it because something triggers the thought - an image, a memory, a realisation. I also right about it because, for so long, I wasn’t allowed to tell the truth. I had to be quiet and stoic, in order to preserve the family I did have.
I also write about it so that others realise that they are not alone. As time goes on and you become responsible for your own life and choices, you can decide to be healthy. It’s taken me some time to get to where I am, and it’s taken a whole lot of letting go. It’s taken me recognising that no one is responsible for my healing but myself. I see some friends that have gone through different issues with their families or their upbringing, and how holding on to the anger and pain poisons their lives. It’s insidious, and hurtful.
I’ve made a decision in my life to move towards the good. To take care of myself and to invest time and energy into healing myself. It has absolutely been worth it. I feel like I am now able to process the pain and sadness, rather than just holding onto the hurt. I feel like I am stronger and more honest for it.